Let's get down to the WHY Emotional Demons is so important to me

I had this whole silly thing written out for the last year.  It got cornier and cornier every time I read it.

Today, Im here to remove the silly things and get down to the reality of it all.

I created Emotional Demonz to honor my late brother, who passed away of an overdose.

My goal was to reach as many people as possible, and let them know they matter, no matter what that inner demon is that they're fighting.

Its been 3 years since he passed.  Ive spent so much time helping people carry the burden of their own demons, that I forgot to work on my own.

3 years, and I still have so much shame.  Shame for not getting to know my brother better. For not taking the time to know his pain, his loneliness.  Instead, I passed judgment on him.  Knowing the things that he went through that led him on his path that ended his life.  I buried that knowledge, because it hurt, because I went through it, too, and I judged him for his life.

It wasn't until he died that all that childhood trauma came erupting out.  I became lost for quite sometime, trying to decide how to process it and heal.  

I tried therapy, but it wasnt for me. This was something I had to do on my own..  I had to sit with my OWN demons, and heal from them.

It wasnt easy, but 3 year later, Im FINALLY healed from all the sexual abuse.  Ive moved on from it.

But now my heart breaks my heart, that he could never heal from his trauma.  He lost his battle to that demon, and it cost him his life.

My shame sits with me every day now, and I point the finger inwards, to the ways that I failed him.

Its so easy to point the finger at others, but until you can point it inwards, you'll never really heal, or grow.

Emotional Demonz is a movement.  A movement against child sex abuse. A movement against mental health stigma.  A movement against addiction.  And a movement against division.

Its about time that we start pointing inwards.

Instead of pointing fingers, lets extend hands, to offer support, and one day, someone may extend their hand your way.

I love you Brad.  

People WILL know your story, Every Ugly Detail to it, to bring awareness to the things that plague our world.

I love you Brad.  #emotionaldemonz